Can ya believe it? I missed another day! You'd think, that since I can't move around much, and spend my life here on the couch, I'd remember things better! Sheesh, it's not like I have a life or anything! lol
Yesterday I was grateful for the lounger that was delivered, that 1)holds my weight 2) doesn't cause me untold pain 3) allows me to enjoy the evening outside.
Sam helped me out with the clothes last evening, and he set up my lounger for me and helped me on it, and then played in the back garden while I enjoyed the time outside.
This is the first time I've sat outside in a long time, due to the pain that chairs cause me.
I enjoyed watching sam play in the boxes that the loungers had come in. He made it into a cool fort.
The simple joys of childhood and the forgotten imagination.
Today I'm grateful for the hubby who is busy cleaning out the cubby in the kitchen and cleaning the house.
We have inspection tomorrow (we rent our home, sucks!) and he's busy sprucing up the place.
Do you have any idea how crap it feels, to be sitting on the couch, while someone slaves, doing what you should be doing?
One of the hardest aspects of Fibro/ME/CFS is how it makes you useless and then feel guilty for the being useless.
I want to get up and help, and willing to suffer the pain, but then I get told off for trying and made to sit back down.
So, not only am I a child, made to mind and be told off, but I feel horrible guilty for just sitting here.
Sometimes life just sucks.
There are times I just want to stop the merry go round and get off.
I know that they say God won't give you more than you can handle, but I wish he didn't trust me so much, cuz I just want to throw my toys out of the pram and scream.
If I'm totally honest, my faith has been beaten, bruised and in danger of being crushed.
There are few ppl that I know I can depend, but I don't know anymore whether God is one of those ppl.
Oh my, I didn't mean to be that honest! lol See what happens when you want more posts!
