Catching up and laying low

I had a nice bit of time, catching up on Netsters gratitude posts.

If I had to give one thing today, that I'm grateful for, it would be that I have such an amazing friend, with such a gift of love and beauty, that just reading her blog could give a sense of peace and contentment that I've found so hard to reach lately.

Netster is such a joy and gem, and I thank whoever/whatever brought her to be my friend.

And nope, I didn't know it was for me, but thank you for pointing it out! (for nets)

I had WI this morning and lost....

zilch.

nada.

nothing.

zero.

0.

I totally and completely stayed the same, right down to the last gram.

Bummed.

Sad.

Discouraged.

I'm guessing that after a week of morphine, it's not a good thing to get something else dumped on you, when you've tried so hard.

I've lost 16 lb in the 4 weeks I've been back to WW, so why am I so upset at a stay-the-same.

Guess it's just been such a lemon of a week, I didn't need it. or want it.

I've not given in to my desire to comfort eat all week, which is usually what I do when I hurt so bad, and then not to lose after the struggle is not a good feeling.

So what's for supper tonight?

A lovely pepperoni pizza with loads of cheese???

A plate of home made nachos with loads of cheese???

I know!! How about a huge chocolate bar for snack???

Nope, a WW spinach and cheese cannelloni with a side salad.

Glutton for punishment, aren't I??

Where did I

Go??

I seem to have a lost a week in there somewhere. lol

WI this past thursday brought me a 4lb loss.

I have now lost 1 stone and 2 lbs.

I now have 2 silver 7's in my possession, okay, not exactly in my possession, since they are cyber 7's, but ya know what I mean!

This week has gone by quickly.

I spent alot of it asleep, pain was up this week, must be the rain.

Thought alot about Netster this week, got stuff I need to post to her, but seemed like alot of effort, a bit more than I could do.

Pain Sucks!

Tonight is the first England match in the World Cup, and it's against the USA!

This should be interesting night in our Brit/US household.

I'm thinking I need to stock up on things I can throw, here beside my couch, when JustAL gets mouthy, I need something to chuck! lol

Anyone else watching??

Another 6 bites the dust

Yep! I did it again!

I lost another 6lbs! Yea me!

It's only 10:58 and already my day has went from good to embarrassing to bad.

I do not want to know what rest the day holds in store!

Good: Went into town, found close disabled parking to boots, Doodles, JustAL and I went into Boots for me to weigh. Yea! 6lbs gone!

Then we headed across the street to Waterstones to preorder a new book from Stephanie Meyers for both me and Gail (MIL) and get a gift card for Gail, for her birthday today.

Embarrassing: Had a look around, paid for the preordered books, got gift card, looked around for minute, and since the pain is playing up alot today, I looked around for a bench to sit on.
Found a bench and negotiated between a really tall bookcase, and thought that was good, something to look at while I'm waiting for the boys to get done looking.
Al helps me sit down and wanders off to find Doodles.

I'm enjoying my little spot, it's got the tall book case on my right with all sorts of fiction on it, and it's partially blocked by a smaller bookcase, so ppl can't just stare.

I look over and getting a few weird looks from the staff at the counter. HHMMM, I'm sure this is a public seat.

More weird looks from ppl. HHHMMM, wonder if they think I'm trying to nick something?!?

I tire of looking at the shelves on my right and turn to my left a bit so I can have a look a the small bookcase facing me, the one that is keeping me hidden a bit.

OH! SHEEESH!!

Big sign saying......

EROTIC FANTASY!! OH my!! Naked ppl staring at me!!

STOP!! Don't move! I say to my very confused little boy who was heading for me.

Why do I have to stop, he says.....

JustAL: Never mind son, just walk the the other way.

Good grief!! I got up faster than I have in a long time!! JustAL sure got a giggle out of it!! figures!!

Then we head back for the car.

Bad:

Got to the car, in the nice close disabled spot.

Forgot to put out my disabled badge on the dash.

Got a £70 parking ticket!!

Can this day get any worse??!!??

missed another one

Can ya believe it? I missed another day! You'd think, that since I can't move around much, and spend my life here on the couch, I'd remember things better! Sheesh, it's not like I have a life or anything! lol

Yesterday I was grateful for the lounger that was delivered, that 1)holds my weight 2) doesn't cause me untold pain 3) allows me to enjoy the evening outside.

Sam helped me out with the clothes last evening, and he set up my lounger for me and helped me on it, and then played in the back garden while I enjoyed the time outside.
This is the first time I've sat outside in a long time, due to the pain that chairs cause me.
I enjoyed watching sam play in the boxes that the loungers had come in. He made it into a cool fort.

The simple joys of childhood and the forgotten imagination.

Today I'm grateful for the hubby who is busy cleaning out the cubby in the kitchen and cleaning the house.
We have inspection tomorrow (we rent our home, sucks!) and he's busy sprucing up the place.

Do you have any idea how crap it feels, to be sitting on the couch, while someone slaves, doing what you should be doing?
One of the hardest aspects of Fibro/ME/CFS is how it makes you useless and then feel guilty for the being useless.
I want to get up and help, and willing to suffer the pain, but then I get told off for trying and made to sit back down.
So, not only am I a child, made to mind and be told off, but I feel horrible guilty for just sitting here.

Sometimes life just sucks.

There are times I just want to stop the merry go round and get off.

I know that they say God won't give you more than you can handle, but I wish he didn't trust me so much, cuz I just want to throw my toys out of the pram and scream.

If I'm totally honest, my faith has been beaten, bruised and in danger of being crushed.

There are few ppl that I know I can depend, but I don't know anymore whether God is one of those ppl.

Oh my, I didn't mean to be that honest! lol See what happens when you want more posts!